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     For a while I was hanging on to something… Something like a dream that would someday come true. I was holding on to something hoping that one day I would soon find myself in the place where I wanted to be…… And that day has happened.

     Who would have thought I’d find the answer in the place that took away my love the second time around. (ma luoy na sad mo nako? hehe..)… Who would have thought a simple night which started with a drink of a not so good mango shake in a place called "High Cafe" would answer my questions. Well there was I once again, with my special friend (present status), walking, talking, and finally finding ourselves infront of a fountain in the heart of Cebu City. We were both enjoying eachothers company while talking bout good things…. then one led to the other… we found ourselves having conversations about going on with life. The situation is clear… I mean, she’s not my girl… though I was hoping still until that night… and it was harder for me to let go of that dream because I   thought there was love for me… the kind of love that only needs effort to build a relationship, but it turns out to be a different kind of love afterall… the love you give to friends…  like the love she had with other friends… some things shouldn’t have happened to make this all clear to me before .. but it did… and it led me hanging for quite some time. Then she asked me one world stoppping question… "serioso gud diay ka nako bah ?"… it hurts, considering the fact that I’ve been trying to show it all the while, and yet she still asks… but I can’t blame her (na controversial man gud ko kadyut.. heh..). And I never did. Instead of getting hurt, breaking down, and looking for explainations, I was happy. In fact I smiled when she said that because, finally, everything made sense…. why that dream of mine remained a dream was answered. Thank you friend. : )

     All the while I thought I was hanging on to something, something bigger than me, and I was afraid of letting go of it, scared that I might fall down and I’ll find it hard to get a grip of myself… but I was wrong … coz now I see myself as a little boy holding a balloon…. a balloon full of questions, hopes, and dreams… and as that little boy, I realized that I was not hanging on to something bigger than me… I was holding on  to that balloon… the one i’ve been holding for quite some time… and after that moment I finally decided to slowly let it go, and as I watch it flying farther to me, I  realized one thing…. Im still on my ground.

    to my special friend…..
               
        " Let this be the end of me saying "I Love You" as a someone who is dreaming of you…. and let this be the start of me saying "I Love You’  as a friend."