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…. a repost for my new friends….. : )

   ( please finish reading before making your judgement…)

   Most people knowadays are either obsessed of love or fear love.
There are the typical man/woman hating girls/boys saying they don’t
trust guys/girls anymore… all of them until proven good.. because of
some past experiences with them, or worst, not even their own
experiences but that of others whom they know, and because of these
things.. they tend to be afraid to love and use the never ending saying
"we haven’t found the right guy/girl yet". Then there are the cannot be
alone type of people who seems to find it easy and necessary to replace
the old loved ones when they leave never thinking if they are ready to
love,.. if it’s right to love… or if it is even love. The need to
love as they say.
  Well,to make it clear, im not against anyone
here …  I know and believe that we all have to  love . But I also
want everybody to try to FUCK love once in a while.

  I did FUCKed love once, and it happened like this……..

    I knew I was a normal man living a normal life the moment I
first laid my eyes on this one special girl whom, years before, never
caught my attention like the way she did in my last few years of
college. She was there walking, talking, laughing, and smiling like she
normally does while, at a distance, there was I, a simple man, looking
straight at her, open-eyed dreaming that someday I will be standing
next to that lady with a sweet name… walking, talking, laughing,
smiling, and even crying  with her. Well dreams do come true and within
a few sleeps at night and waking ups in the morning, I found myself
somehow a part of that pretty girls life.

  But, unlike other love stories, I was stuck in a situation where
time is slowly slipping away and i can see it so clearly. I knew she
was never gonna be mine. Maybe it’s destiny, but I am man who doesnt
believe in destiny, or perhaps refuse to believe in it. I was there
trying my best, though she never asked me to, to make my own destiny
and maybe… just maybe .. would let her change her mind and be mine.
Well, we talked about it before… and it’s clear when she said that
she had many plans in life, then suddenly I came, tried to make her
happy and she said it worked, but she doesnt know what to do… I’m not
part of her plans and things happened quickly and she didn’t know what
to do. Well like other girls who dont want flowers because they dont
wan’t to be attached to something that they know will be gone soon, she
decided not to take me. I know she never wanted me to hope for
anything. But I did. I did and I got hurt. Seeing someone you love so
much and loved you slowly slipping away. I know were going to see
eachother again but at that very moment I felt very sad but I know I
tried, and it was worth it. I can still remember the last time we were
together here. She held my hand so tight and told me she loved me that
much. Well tears are in my eyes that night. I know i’ve been hurt but I
want to make it clear that I still want to love and I believe I will.

  You might misinterpret the title of my article today… You might
think I hate the world or her or even love. You might think im saying
this in a negative way. All I’m saying is that we all should and
deserve to FUCK love…. F-all in love… U-nderstand love… C-herish
love… and get the chance to K-now  what love is. I know I did.   

   If you feel like i’m making sense right here….. then I hope you’ll FUCK love soon. : )

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